pissed

blogger is down at the moment, so im writing down on notepad. yeah, i will be writing the whole afternoon, that would be ughmm.. 7 hours straight typing. im pissed off and tired, and sad, and instead of banging bashing things, which i dont usualy do, im just gonna write and write and fckn write..

im pissed off because, i stayed up late for two straight days to study the most boring subject i ever took, only to end up with a grade of C for the orals. damn fck. and to think that i got c plus on past tests when i dont exert to much effort. pucha tlga. whenver i exert a lot of effort studying, i get lower grades compared to when i study only a little.

and then, i had trouble breathing last night. maybe it had to do with all the stress in crmaiinng tests, but it may also came from smoking to often. i never really smoked more than a pack a day, but im not so perfectly fit anyway.. so i guess, it must be a reason too. so what i did, i got back to ninja crap breathing. sitting down in sazen breathing making stupid signs.. im facsinated with all this control over nature thingy of ninjas but i never really had enlightening results, but i did it neway for the breathing techniques which has good effects. the same breathing through stomach routine blabla.

i studied late again for a test awhile ago. and im pissed off again coz i wasn't able to write down as precisely as the text has said. it became a crap test. although i dont know what it could hve been if i didnt study at all. my grades are plunging down low at this sem. worst case scenario..

film: b
philosci: c
ethics: c
polsci: d
epis: d
theo: c

average: c = 1.83!!!!!!!!!!!

if i dont make it to an average of two, im done for in this skul.. whathas happened to me.. darn... this have been my most boring semester, i got too attached on the feeling, geez. i must atleast get a b+ in film... and a c on ethics. or a c + on theo. then... average would be exactly 2.. pucha.. my lowest q.p.1. in history.. arghhh...

biwisit!!! putikp utik putk..